When things are going well it is easy to ignore my website. In the last month I have had plenty to write about from a 5 day trip at Disney World to spending some quality time with my in-laws (that isn't meant in a sarcastic tone - my wife's relatives are truly wonderful people). So it seems to be no coincidence that I finally decide to make another blog post after the longest hiatus since I revamped my site about 40 weeks ago. I'm not sure how or when exactly it has happened, but I fear my meds are no longer working. for the last month or so things had been fantastic. I felt like I could do anything and I hoped that I was starting to level out. I wasn't overly happy, nor was I depressed. I was just very mellow and I let things roll off my back like water to a duck.

Several months ago I wrote a post describing what it has been like for me to deal with anxiety and depression. At that time I was wondering if I would ever find the right combination of coping skills and or medications. I knew I was pretty close to hitting bottom, since I had been there before, but I decided that I wasn't going to let that happen. I've tried really hard to find ways to keep myself busy to prevent me from being anxious or depressed. I've been more aggressive with my doctor when I don't feel my medication is working and making sure it gets fixed. Most importantly, I haven't given up.

Generally I like to keep my blog a little upbeat, and thats why I write about things like theme parks and holidays. I figure that unless you are famous no one really cares how horrible your life has been or the struggles you deal with. We accept it from celebrities because it somehow humanizes people we have put on a pedestal. It is unlikely that this post will even get half the number of hits that one of my trip reports. Which is fine for me. I am not writing this to get a swarm of traffic. This post is for both my close friends and my extended network of friends. I feel they deserve an explanation on why I flake out sometimes.